Being at the bottom of a pendulum swing is where I come alive. Eating a shitty greasy meal is a reason to eat healthy the next time. Screwing up is a welcome, distracting rasion d’etre.… more
Being at the bottom of a pendulum swing is where I come alive. Eating a shitty greasy meal is a reason to eat healthy the next time. Screwing up is a welcome, distracting rasion d’etre.… more
I was in a diaper at age four because Liz and Michelle needed a baby for their game. I liked being in the diaper. Even after Steven and Billy saw me, I stayed in the diaper.… more
Tilting under the bucket’s weight, I turn, the bucket slamming the baseball-sized patch of necrotic skin on my leg where the graft failed, where dead black skin mottled with pale-yellow melted cheese. I limp over to their precious dirt pile to dump out while Scotty the commercial fisherman glares at me.… more
Grandpa died on Monday. I loved him. At his funeral, I should have cried but I felt like laughing.… more
there is no one way to woman, but my way wasn’t one of them.… more
I see myself through his eyes. A woman fleeing. Away from him. This is not who I want to be. This is who I’ll always be. I’ve read enough stories, heard enough stories. … more
They get ICE CREAM, more sugar-shit. He says SHIT, he says DAMN IT (slurred m-sound) and OH MAN, but I don’t call him little man, just baby, just boy, just champ sometimes.… more
I had read that though their bodies were emptied of organs, and filled with sawdust, that the hearts of pharaohs were left untouched. That before they were sealed inside their tombs, their mouths were slit through layers of linen—opened—because they believed in breath in the afterlife. What did I believe in?… more
When my therapist said you were a terrible father, you flared up, almost cascaded out of my mouth.… more
I did not know what rape meant and she did not tell me. But she did want to know where I had heard the word.… more