Oh, that Memphis rain,” Mama said.
“Days like this, you can feel it in the brick,” said Papa.
“Get your fingers out your mouth!”
“Ghosts in the ancient bricks. I feel them under my feet in the morning. Watching me at night.”
“There’s ghosts in Memphis, I believe that,” Mama nodded.
Papa sat on a hanging bench listening to the rain. It rattled the glossy banana leaves in the garden. It was dark for a July afternoon. Wall lamps lit the floor of the porch in yellow and white but left shadows in the corners. Swinging, swinging with his feet planted on the floor, the old man looked dusty.
“You’ll ruin your damn socks,” Mama said.
Papa hunched over with effort and eyed the pad of his left foot.
“Get your fingers out your mouth!”
Papa rocked in the muted din of the summer storm. The old brick porch was cool. Over the long years that garden crawled up the porch wall. Now it reached up and over knocking the gutter with a tinny rap. Papa spit a finger nail in a long arc.
“What did I ever see in you?” Mama asked.
“You loved me once, Mama, am I wrong to know that?”
“Oh, I loved you,” she said.
“Mud Island, you remember? I know you do. You remember what I promised?”
“What I promise?” he asked.
“You said, ‘Baby, I love you and I will love you until this river runs out. Until Tennessee and Arkansas kiss across the mud.’ Don’t you remember what I said, Papa?”
“You said: Baby, I’ll be with you until the birds fall out the sky.”
“Yes, yes, I remember.”
“You loved me then.”
“Yes, Papa, I did.”
“Kids out there playing in the heat. Drunk daddies and the cook out smell. And grass in patches up past your knees,” Papa said to no one.
“In the car, you picked the prickers off my socks, I remember.”
“Mosquitos like nothing I’ve ever seen.”
“Yes, they chewed up my legs. A poor excuse for you to get handsy.”
“We had a wet love then, Mama,” Papa looked down. “You know that river’s still running.”
“Those birds are still flying, Papa, and I’m still with you. Don’t think you’ll ever be able to really get rid of me.”
“Been trying half my life, Mama. How long has it been?”
“I don’t count like that anymore. It’s an anniversary, though.”
“Almost to the hour. Can’t you feel it coming on?”
“You were sitting here where I am, just rocking.”
“It was sunny that day—damn hot. The kind of heat that kills dogs and drives people wild,” Mama said.
“I walked right up those steps into the shade of those banana leaves and see you, Mama, looking pretty. Pretty like the old pictures. Pretty as us out on those low bluffs kissing like mosquitos.”
“I’m still pretty now, Papa. Only different.”
“What was in your eyes, Mama, that’s what made you pretty—the wildness. Curl of your smile made me sick, like in the way you used to.”
“You were handsome when you were scared,” she said.
“I was surely scared then,” Papa laughed. “When I saw what you had there.”
“You remember what I said, Papa?”
“You said, “Mannnn, I’m gonna gut you like a fish.”
“An effing fish!”
“That’s right,” Papa laughed. “And when you came at me I almost spit!”
Mama laughed now. In the warm pocket of that porch, no one could hear her but Papa.
“Your legs, Mama,” he started. “I still think about those legs.”
There was a pause. A police car rolled through the pools of water on the narrow streets. Papa fell quiet. With the croak of the chair, the soft buzz of the electric light, fat pattering rain, Papa sighed.
“My legs, Papa, you were saying something about my legs.”
“Those legs, you had them spread out like in a sort of football stance. I remember, you forgot your pantyhose that day.”
“Papa, maybe a woman forgets a little on the day she decides to kill her husband.”
“Well, Mama, I’m sure glad you forgot. I still think about those legs—dimples in the fat and they way they moved when you stepped like that. One-two-three, lunging at me with a knife like that.”
“I almost got you, too!”
“Almost, almost,” Papa nodded, chewed the corner of a fingernail.
“I tripped on a damn flower pot!”
“You tumbled like cut grass, that’s right.”
“How’d I look when you blew away my head?”
“You looked pretty as a bird, Mama. Before I brought that flower pot down.”
“One, two, three times.”
“And the damn thing didn’t break!”
“I can’t believe it,” said Mama.
“I swear by them, Mama. I’ve got to write in a review.”
“You’ve got to.”
“But no,” Papa started. “You weren’t so pretty after I drove in your face, Mama. You weren’t so wild there dead on the brick.”
“I’m still pretty, only different.”
“I chucked up a chicken dog, baby, and fell flat on my ass. That’s the God’s truth.”
“I know it. I was watching,” Mama said.
“Broad daylight, in the summer heat, Mama. Shirt covered in blood and spit, just waiting for Mrs. Hutchinson and that rat beagle of hers to come around the corner and ask after you.”
“I thought it was funnier than hell,” said Mama.
“You know, on the drive home—I was coming to see you, you know that?”
“Yes, papa, but where from?”
“Baby, that wasn’t important. What’s important was the drive home thinking about you. How we could leave and go back when we were so young. We could’ve gone to Louisville, Little Rock. Pick a name off the map. We could have gone.”
“It’s important to me where you were coming from.”
“You aren’t still mad, Mama, are you? About all that?”
“No, I guess not.”
As the rain slowed, heat crept back into the air. A muggy blanket settled on the surface of everything, but the old brick was cool.
“You weren’t smiling either when I planted you way out there,” Papa added.
“It was a nice thing to do.”
“Thought maybe you’d grow into a tree.”
“You couldn’t have known I was already here.”
“I hope you’re staying dry in there, Mama.”
“Papa, you know I’m dry.”
There was a pause. Papa spit a fingernail. It landed by a pile of old papers—yellow and half-dry-half-fat from the humidity. But the swinging chair, there wasn’t much on the porch.
“I watch the birds when I can, you know,” Papa said.
“Yes, Papa, what kind do you see?”
“Don’t know all that. I just like watching them fly. Never once seen one drop out of the sky.”
“And you never will.”
Papa was still for a while. Water dripped an unsteady rhythm from the roof’s edge to the wide leaves of the garden. He stood up with his hands on his knees and stepped, one-two-three, to the iron-gate door. He knelt by the empty flower pot. He touched the brick, braced himself against it and lowered his chest to the floor. His ear felt the cool touch of the brick. His lips close enough to kiss:
“I keep wishing for the river to run dry.”
“Papa, it never will.”