{"id":24355,"date":"2026-05-30T08:55:48","date_gmt":"2026-05-30T12:55:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/?p=24355"},"modified":"2026-05-30T08:55:48","modified_gmt":"2026-05-30T12:55:48","slug":"i-cant-live","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/flash-fiction\/i-cant-live\/","title":{"rendered":"I Can&#8217;t Live Without My Radio"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>As soon as he rolled into the common room at Whispering Oaks, I knew it was DJ Skillz. First, I saw the boombox\u2014JVC RC-M90, chrome like a Cadillac bumper\u2014then the man behind it. He set it down, groaned, and grabbed the back brace under a faded Knicks warm-up. Rope chain. Orthopedic kicks. Same old smirk.<\/p>\n<p>I was in my good cardigan and Velcro sneakers, visor crooked. They call me Randall here, a retired accountant. Once I was MC Assassin.<\/p>\n<p>Skillz spotted me at the card table, playing bridge with Grace, Otto, and Jeanne. We froze like mannequins.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat are you doing here, Simon?\u201d I said, pushing upright, wincing from the ache in my hip.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAssassin,\u201d he said, low. \u201cYou\u2019ve been dodging me for thirty years. Today\u2019s your reckoning.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I swatted the air. \u201cYou gonna have to wait thirty more.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The room perked up. Wheelchairs rolled closer, forming a lopsided ring. Hearing aids clicked on in a wave. Someone killed the TV and silence felt electric. Nurse Sarah wheeled past with the meds cart.<\/p>\n<p>Skillz raised the boombox like a stone tablet. \u201cYou owe me a rematch. You went personal. My girl. My kid.\u201d The last word hung there.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI retired the champ,\u201d I said, quiet.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cRematch!\u201d Skillz roared.<\/p>\n<p>The residents tapped their canes, banged the card tables, clapped their hands. \u201cRE-MATCH! RE-MATCH!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019d never seen the place so animated.<\/p>\n<p>Skillz pressed PLAY. Nothing. He smacked the lid. Nothing. He squinted.<br \/>\n\u201cWhen did I change \u2019em last?\u201d he wondered aloud.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDon\u2019t tell me 1993.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Skillz nodded. \u201cYeah.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>We both laughed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cListen,\u201d I said, low enough for just him. \u201cBack then I broke the unwritten rules\u2014went for family. I was scared of you, so I punched down. Then I hid from you. I\u2019m sorry, bro.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked at his reflection in the chrome, then at me. \u201cI been hiding, too, man. My son. The call.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhen was the last time you spoke to Andre?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTwenty years.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I squeezed my rival\u2019s shoulder. \u201cIt\u2019s not too late.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked around. \u201cThis is nice.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNancy and I moved in four years ago,\u201d I said. \u201cShe passed last winter.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSorry.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019ve been burying grief with bridge and video poker. And a colonoscopy. Four years overdue. I\u2019m scared.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTruth,\u201d Sarah said, steering a resident out of a three-point turn.<\/p>\n<p>Skillz scratched the RC-M90\u2019s handle with his thumb. \u201cI still demand my rematch,\u201d he said with a crooked smile.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAfter Jeopardy,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n<p>The TV came back on. The blue board lit the faces around us; hearing aids hummed in unison.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSo, you think I should call \u2019Dre?\u201d he asked.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat do I say?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cStart with \u2018hey,\u2019\u201d I said.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou gonna get that colonoscopy?\u201d Skillz asked. \u201cI\u2019ll pick you up.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat\u2019s a bet.\u201d We fist-bumped as the Jeopardy theme played.<\/p>\n<p>We faced the screen like two old gladiators, truce declared, boombox shining on the table between us like an offering of peace.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>They call me Randall here, a retired accountant. 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