{"id":18095,"date":"2023-12-20T10:41:19","date_gmt":"2023-12-20T15:41:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/?p=18095"},"modified":"2023-12-20T10:50:58","modified_gmt":"2023-12-20T15:50:58","slug":"the-last-one","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/fiction\/the-last-one\/","title":{"rendered":"The Last One"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Every weekday morning, Lance Dial got out of bed at fifteen minutes before six, as if he still had a train to catch for work. He showered, shaved, and dressed\u2014blue Brooks Brothers shirt, cream-colored slacks, brown oxfords\u2014and headed downstairs, his knees cracking so loudly he wondered why the noise didn\u2019t wake his wife, Jo, still buried beneath the comforter. He paused and stretched in the silence and then resumed walking, the silence following him.<\/p>\n<p>At the bottom of the stairs, he looked through the living room\u2019s French doors at the backyard and the pink terrace, damp with dew and uneven from years of chipmunks burrowing beneath the square tiles. In the dim morning light, he considered the rotted wood fence that separated his yard from a patch of forest. Just above the treetops, he could see the roofs of condominiums on the other side of the woods. The condos had not been there when he bought his property a half-century before, and they were filled with people he did not know and who did not wave when he drove past them and raised a hand in greeting.<\/p>\n<p>Someone had left an unsigned note in his mailbox the other day calling his shabby, rail fence a blight on the neighborhood. He admitted it had seen better days, but it still seemed functional. Boards had fallen off and it listed when it rained, but it had been a dry year and the fence had held. Dial saw no need to do anything about it now. He threw the note away.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>As he stared outside, Dial noticed the fence shudder and weave slightly. Crows nearby quickly scattered into a gray sky streaked with the red of the autumn sunrise. He looked closer, tracking the fence\u2019s movement, until he saw a dark, thrashing shape.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cJesus,\u201d Dial said.<\/p>\n<p>A deer had impaled itself on one of the posts. It reared back and opened its mouth and stayed like that for some time before it lowered its head, tongue lolling out one side of its mouth like a slug. Blood dripped from it.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cJesus,\u201d he said again.<\/p>\n<p>He looked away. He had suffered a heart attack six months earlier. Ever since, he worried that any surprise or shock, any unexpected jolt would be the equivalent of a power surge and overwhelm his heart. He pressed a hand against his chest and sat down. He stared at the deer. Its head hung low, then it turned its eyes toward the house. Dial turned away, pressed his hand harder against his chest.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Dial\u2019s symptoms back in the spring were so mild that he initially suspected nothing. He assumed his asthma was acting up because of the heat and humidity. However, the ache in his chest that morning persisted and by lunchtime, when his left arm began to numb, Dial called his doctor\u2019s office. He spoke to a receptionist and explained his symptoms. She told him to stay on the line until an ambulance arrived.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou may be having a heart attack,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n<p>What nonsense, he thought, but he didn\u2019t argue. The mere fact he got this information from someone he could not see and didn\u2019t know, and whose voice was not particularly warm, intimidated him. The anonymity of it made him feel lost. He placed a hand over his chest.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy are you doing this to me?\u201d he asked himself as if his body had, in cahoots with the receptionist, plotted against him.<\/p>\n<p>Jo rode with him to the hospital. She held his hand. He breathed through a mask the paramedic had put over his mouth and nose. Machines wheezed and whistled. He listened to the siren, imagined cars pulling over to let them through. He took deep breaths, felt his lungs expand against a great burden.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>An electrocardiogram showed he had suffered a minor heart attack. A coronary artery was partially blocked, a doctor explained. He would receive a blood thinner intravenously. He would not require surgery, but he would have to remain in the hospital at least three days.<\/p>\n<p>Dial\u2019s 42-year-old son and only child, Lance Jr., walked into the room as the doctor was speaking. Lance quietly took a seat in a chair at the foot of the bed, his spine straight, and said nothing. \u201cDon\u2019t slouch when you sit\u201d had been drilled into him as a child.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAny questions?\u201d the doctor asked.<\/p>\n<p>Dial shook his head no.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThank you,\u201d Jo said.<\/p>\n<p>The doctor left. Dial stared at the ceiling. He looked at his son and waited for him to speak.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHow you feeling, Dad?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOh, I\u2019m fine. Just a little scare.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He forced a laugh. His son forced a laugh.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cA little scare? Really?\u201d Jo said.<\/p>\n<p>Lance glanced at his watch. When he felt he had stayed long enough to fulfill family etiquette for situations such as these, he stood.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI should go,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Dial looked out the living room window again. The deer was struggling, shaking its head as if in disbelief. Dial could not imagine why it had not cleared the fence. Perhaps one of its legs became ensnared in a vine when it jumped. Something.<\/p>\n<p>When was the last time he had seen a deer? Years ago. Before he built the fence, deer would wander through his backyard throughout the year. Then a neighbor sold his lot to a developer, and Dial fenced one side of his property. Then another neighbor sold to another developer, and he added to the fence. He eventually enclosed his backyard as more properties around him sold and condominiums mushroomed. He added trees to absorb the sound of backhoes and nail guns and the maddingly persistent backup alarms, and to provide a screen against the intrusive sight of \u201cthose monstrosities,\u201d as he called the condos. He felt hemmed in, trapped in a world he had devised to keep the rest of the world out.<\/p>\n<p>Dial noticed the deer, a buck, raise its head, ears pricked forward. The way it looked made Dial think of a weathervane. He saw the top of the post sticking above the deer\u2019s left shoulder. Blood oozed from the wound. Dogs barked from somewhere on the road behind the fence. They sounded close but he could not see them through the brush. The deer kicked, its rear hooves breaking bark off a tree. Blood sprayed out of its mouth, and it stopped moving and hung its head again. The fence sagged under the deer\u2019s weight. Dial watched the animal submit. He could no longer hear the dogs barking.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Dial\u2019s younger brother, Alan, had died the previous year at 68. Alan appeared fit weeks before he was admitted to a hospital. Still ramrod straight, his hair grey but thick. He walked two miles a day, exercised regularly at a YMCA, rarely ate meat, and played golf. On Saturday afternoons, he would stop by, lean back in a kitchen chair and effortlessly kick his feet up on the table in the breakfast nook in such a natural and casual fashion, while talking about golf, that it always took an envious Dial a moment to say, \u201cAlan, get your goddamn feet off the table.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Then poof, Alan became ill. A little stomach upset, nothing more. Then it was nothing more than the flu. Then it was pneumonia, and it did not have to become anything more.<\/p>\n<p>Every day, Dial drove to the hospital to see his brother. More often than not, Alan was asleep when he arrived. He looked thin, pale, and wrinkled in his blue gown, as if age had finally caught up with him. Machines clicked and beeped, and nurses in uniforms as white as the walls walked in and out of Alan\u2019s room. They examined clipboards, flipped switches, and left, their sneakers squeaking against the shined floors.<\/p>\n<p>Dial couldn\u2019t take it. He hurried out of Alan\u2019s room chased by feelings of despair that followed him to the parking lot like a posse of woes.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Dial walked into the kitchen and dialed the police. A dispatcher told him an officer or a park ranger would take care of the deer. She didn\u2019t know when.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDo I know you?\u201d he asked.<\/p>\n<p>Before he retired, he would stop at a coffee shop on his way to work. He became acquainted with several police officers who gathered there. He had not been to the coffee shop for he didn\u2019t know how long. What would he say if people there asked him what he was doing? He\u2019d make up something, followed by the betrayal of a nervous laugh.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know,\u201d the dispatcher said. \u201cYou didn\u2019t tell me your name.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLance Dial.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know you, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI see. You\u2019re dispatch. Some of your officers know me, though.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019ll let them know you called, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThank you. One officer, I can\u2019t remember his name but I spoke to him all the time.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWe\u2019ll get someone out to your house when we can.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThank you,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n<p>The dispatcher hung up.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Dial reached for a loaf of raisin bread on top of the refrigerator and put two slices in the toaster. He tried not to think of the deer. He had called the police. What more could be done? Nothing.<\/p>\n<p>He opened two faded curtains above the sink and stared out at the driveway. Two teenage boys bicycled past, disappearing behind some trees. He closed the curtains and looked at the wall clock above the oven. Three o\u2019clock. The batteries must have died. The toaster clicked and his bread popped up. He smelled the cinnamon and opened a cabinet for a plate. He imagined the clock ticking, the hands moving in silent jerks. When would the police get here? How long had the deer been suffering? He lost his appetite thinking about it. The police should have been here by now. He didn\u2019t like waiting. He had founded a chain of office equipment and carpet stores that he sold at a sizable profit when he retired. Whatever he needed had always been a phone call or fax away. He had been in charge. People responded to him. He never waited.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Jo had urged him to volunteer somewhere after he retired but he refused. Elderly volunteers advertised to the world they had nothing better to do than mince around community centers serving lunch to people of the same age. Doing something for the sake of doing something was how Dial saw it. They seemed proud, almost boastful that they filled their days working without compensation or goals. Their smug self-satisfaction repelled him. He knew he had too much time on his hands, but he had earned it. He had no idea what to do with it, but he had no intention of giving it away.<\/p>\n<p>One night, he overheard his wife on the phone complaining to a friend that he would never just sit with her after dinner and talk. Instead, he rushed through his meals and was off to the kitchen to clean up while she stayed at the table, ready for a conversation about the day ahead or the day just past.<\/p>\n<p>He understood his behavior annoyed her but he could not help himself. He enjoyed washing dishes. The motion of swabbing them with a soapy sponge and toweling them dry relaxed him. It was part of a routine that had been with him since he was a child and told by his parents to clear the table. Once he retired, it was one of the few routines left to him.<\/p>\n<p>His wife often spoke about taking a trip. Let\u2019s go to Miami, she would say. They had been there before. Summer vacations had been a natural part of their lives when Dial worked and their son was growing up. Now, the mere consideration of planning a trip against the pressure of all this vacant time wearied him into inaction.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHello, this is Lance Dial again. I think I spoke to you earlier.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know about that, sir. Why are you calling the Northfield Police Department?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWell, a deer\u2019s impaled on my fence. I called earlier and someone was supposed to come out and put it down.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI see the report here, sir. An officer has been notified.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhen will they get here?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI mean it shouldn\u2019t take this long.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThey\u2019ll get there when they can, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t understand.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat don\u2019t you understand, sir?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Dial got off the phone and considered calling his son. Lance owned a handgun. At least he said he did. He mentioned it one evening while the two of them watched the TV news in the living room. The newscaster had talked about a concealed carry proposition on the ballot. Lance supported it. Then he mentioned he had a handgun. Kept it on his night table. If anyone broke into his house, he\u2019d get what was coming to him. Lance often spoke like this when he got worked up, as if he was still somebody and had not lost his supervisory job at the Princeton, Indiana, Toyota plant. His voice would rise until he shouted his opinions as if he were speaking to a room full of people. Well, Dial thought, if he had a gun and wasn\u2019t just talking like a tough guy, he could come over and shoot the deer and be done with it.<\/p>\n<p>Dial didn\u2019t remember if he had seen his son since he stopped by the hospital. Lance had been unemployed for a year. He gave all sorts of reasons why he had not found work after he\u2019d been laid off: he was over 50 and overqualified, not enough job openings at other auto plants, lousy economy, minorities were getting all the jobs. Dial, however, suspected he was not looking for work but was content for the time being to live off his 401(k) and severance package. He lived with his girlfriend. She sold kitchenware at a high-end department store while Lance stayed home and cleaned the house, gardened, and walked their dog. He liked to cook and took great pride in the salads he made from the vegetables he grew in his garden. He drank a lot too, leading Dial to believe his son was not as content as he let on. But he said nothing. He didn\u2019t know what to say.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>When Lance did visit his parents, Dial and Jo would speak around his \u201ccircumstances,\u201d as they called his unemployment. They discussed the weather. How odd that it was so warm. Lance would dispute a prediction of rain as if he had something prove. Prove what? That he knew as much as a meteorologist? What was the point? Dial didn\u2019t know. It didn\u2019t make sense. After a while, Lance would settle down, and they would speak about something else. Dial endured the visit, his discomfort almost suffocating until Lance left.<\/p>\n<p>Why aren\u2019t you looking for work? Dial wanted to ask. Just put the question out there. Skip all this other nonsense. He wondered how awkward the silence between them would be. Would they fill the void again with mindless talk about Lance\u2019s dog, his vegetable garden, his God knows what? The weather again? How many times can two people discuss the weather? Many times, Dial knew, many times if the goal was to avoid saying what was really on his mind, and he would avoid it because he didn\u2019t know how Lance might answer: Dad, I just don\u2019t know what to do. Is that what he might say? Or Dad, I\u2019ve just given up looking.<\/p>\n<p>Dial had never had a conversation like that with Lance. He felt he shouldn\u2019t have to. He had never needed such a conversation with his father. Lance was a grown man. He doesn\u2019t need me to talk to him, Dial thought, he needs to get back to work. He was a Dial. Not just a Dial but in all probability the last Dial. There would be no more Dials unless Lance and his girlfriend had children, an unlikely event since they weren\u2019t married and she was no younger than Lance.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhen I go, you\u2019ll be the last one,\u201d Dial told Lance after Alan died.<\/p>\n<p>As far as Dial was concerned, he had done his part. He had been a husband, father, and provider. He had bought a house, put food on the table, and held a good job for 40-odd years. He celebrated holidays and birthdays and took his family on vacations. He visited his parents at least once a week until they died. He put Lance through school, attended his recitals, and watched him play baseball and football. Dial had spent a lifetime doing his part. Since birth, he had been dutiful. Dutiful to his parents, dutiful to Jo, dutiful to Lance. He had conducted himself properly and fulfilled all his obligations. He raised his son the same way.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIf my father asked me to jump, I didn\u2019t ask why, I asked how far,\u201d Dial liked to say.<\/p>\n<p>Dial\u2019s values were the values of his parents and their parents and their parents before them. He never questioned them any more than his parents had. If he had not married Jo, Dial would have married someone else. He would have had a different family, but a family nonetheless with the same responsibility to Dial values.<\/p>\n<p>He caught his reflection in the windows overlooking the driveway. He stared at himself, comforted by the shape of his nose, the curve of his mouth, and the slope of his high forehead, like so many Dials before him.<\/p>\n<p>Lance had disregarded his family\u2019s values. He had instead chosen to live in a manner his father could not understand and did not want to. Dial had done all he could. As a father, he felt obligated to love his son, but he did not approve of him.<\/p>\n<p>Dial would call the police one final time and if they gave him more of their runaround, he\u2019d tell Lance to come over and shoot the deer. Lance could do that much if nothing more.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Dial walked into the living room. He watched the deer jerk and kick, thrashing its head back and forth. Vines entangled its antlers. The two boys Dial had seen earlier on their bikes had followed the road to the back side of his property and now stood behind the deer throwing stones and sticks at it.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHey!\u201d Dial shouted knocking on the glass. \u201cHey! Stop! Goddamn you, stop!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His heart pounded. He should go outside and stop them, he told himself, but he didn\u2019t. He didn\u2019t know what to expect. Children no longer had manners. The things he overheard them say, the language they used, would have been unthinkable when he was a boy. He imagined them laughing at him. Perhaps they would hold their ground. \u201cFuck you, old man!\u201d Dial had heard worse. Then what would he do? What would they do? He didn\u2019t know. He continued knocking on the glass.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHey!\u201d he shouted, \u201chey!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>One of the boys slipped and fell and the deer kicked its rear legs and grazed the boy\u2019s shoulder. The boy raised his head and screamed. The other boy pulled him away. They ran out of the woods. Dial watched them go, steaming the glass with his breath.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThis is Lance Dial calling again.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat can I do for you, sir?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m calling about the deer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThe deer?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cA deer that impaled itself on my fence. It needs to be put down. An officer was supposed to come out here. I\u2019ve been calling all morning. I just chased off two boys throwing rocks at it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI have the report here, sir. Someone will come out there.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes, I\u2019ve been told that before. But when?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know, sir. It\u2019s not a priority call.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWell, who would know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He hung up the phone. He looked for his son\u2019s number. He looked on the bulletin board but didn\u2019t see it. He strained to hear if his wife was getting up. She would know the number. He thought he heard something and moved to the foot of the stairs.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cJo?\u201d he shouted.<\/p>\n<p>Nothing.<\/p>\n<p>He walked up the stairs and peered in their room. She lay as still as when he had gotten up. He saw the back of her head, wisps of gray hair. He stepped closer, saw the small rise and fall of her shoulders, the heavy tone of her breathing against her pillow.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cJo?\u201d he said. \u201cJo?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>A weighty sadness settled over him. He didn\u2019t like this change in Jo. When they first married, he and Jo awakened early every weekday morning. She made breakfast while he showered and dressed for work. After he retired, he saw no reason to change the routine.<\/p>\n<p>Lately, however, she had taken to remaining in bed until midmorning. She had become so terribly slow. A slowness of batteries weakening, lights dimming, motors unspooling.<\/p>\n<p>His older sister, Edith, had died in a restaurant of what Dial settled on calling \u201cthe slows.\u201d Her heart, the doctors said, had simply wound down like a clock until it stopped. The last tick occurred just seconds after the main course of broiled salmon, green beans, and coleslaw was served. Edith\u2019s head drooped as if it were being lowered by invisible hands until it settled a little to one side of the coleslaw, snaring a bean with an earring. If she had to die in a restaurant, Dial thought, why couldn\u2019t\u2019t her heart have stopped seconds earlier so that she could have expired on a clean tablecloth instead of coming to harbor in a mound of cold slaw?<\/p>\n<p>Jo never tired of talking about how Edith died, and it pained him to listen to her. He felt so helpless thinking that while he was watching the news and Jo crocheted, only miles away Edith had her face in her dinner plate, dying. There were moments he almost told Jo to stop talking about Edith and the way she had died, but her fascination with the manner of Edith\u2019s death in a way kept his sister alive for him. Jo resurrected her with each retelling.<\/p>\n<p>He wondered if Jo\u2019s obsession with Edith\u2019s death stemmed from the worry that she too might die of the slows. Jo had always enjoyed going out to restaurants, but after Edith died, she stopped nagging him to take her out. He concluded that in anticipation of her own death, Jo had decided to cordon off all paths that might lead to an undignified end.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHello, Lance, this is Dad. Your father.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know who you are, Dad. What\u2019s up?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI need you to come over.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cA deer. A deer\u2019s stuck to the fence. It looks like it jumped and fell on it. One of the posts is sticking through it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cChrist. Did you call the police?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI called the police but you know how they are. They\u2019re not in any hurry. But I thought, I thought, well, you said you had a gun. You could come over.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd shoot it? I don\u2019t know, Dad. I don\u2019t know if I can just shoot it. Just wait for the police. They\u2019ll come.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWell, I don\u2019t know why you won\u2019t just come over.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause you don\u2019t just go shooting a deer in the middle of the neighborhood.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat do you have a gun for?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNot to shoot deer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou don\u2019t know how to use it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know how to use it, Dad.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou don\u2019t even have one, do you?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI do.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t think so.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Lance said nothing.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHello?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m here, Dad.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou\u2019re sitting around not doing anything.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m not exactly sitting around not doing anything.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat are you doing?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Lance didn\u2019t speak. Dial waited and then hung up.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>The doorbell rang. Dial hurried to answer it. Finally, the police. The officer wore a perfectly pressed blue uniform and dark sunglasses. Dial saw his reflection in the lenses refracted like a kaleidoscope of faces.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAre you Lance Dial, sir?\u201d the officer asked.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes. Yes, I am.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhere\u2019s the deer?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Dial walked the officer around to the back of the house and pointed. The deer lay across the fence, drooped over it like a wet sock. It legs kicked feebly. The officer took a deep breath.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDamn. Jesus, that\u2019s sad,\u201d he said. \u201cOK. I have a rifle in my vehicle. I\u2019ll call the park service to take it off your property after I\u2019m done here. You can go back in the house. You don\u2019t have to watch.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Dial nodded. He watched the officer return to his car. His assertive stride offered Dial a kind of certainty that had been missing from his morning, a sense of purpose that buoyed him, and he turned with confidence to go back in the house when he noticed the deer was watching him. The expression in its eyes asked a question Dial could not answer. After a moment, it released a long breath and its head drooped.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt\u2019s dead,\u201d Dial thought.<\/p>\n<p>He walked across the lawn, felt the grass fold beneath his feet. He heard no sounds, of insects or birds or cars on the street. He glanced at the sky. Sunlight blinkered off the roofs of the condos. He stopped before the deer, hands at his sides. The brown fur patchy in spots. A musky odor. He touched its neck, felt the heat of its body through his hand, a rippling of muscle, and then the deer jerked its head, lurched, and floundered violently.<\/p>\n<p>Dial stumbled backward. The deer kicked and kicked and heaved forward. The fencepost snapped, and the deer jolted towards Dial, head lowered, and caught him in the chest, goring and trampling him before it stumbled and collapsed on its side.<\/p>\n<p>Dial lay crumpled. He raised a shaking hand to his broken chest. Shadows and lights flickered and darted behind his closed eyes. He heard the officer shout. Lance? Dial thought. Maybe he had come over after all. He could not understand what he was saying. Then he heard nothing. He waited for Lance to speak again. He waited and waited.<\/p>\n<p>Between them silence had always replaced words, a silence punctuated now by the slowing beat of Dial\u2019s heart and the passage of seconds into fewer seconds until the length of something cold ran through him. He allowed himself to sink into a vast, empty space, and his final breath mingled with that of the deer\u2019s, a cloud between them that briefly hung there before it vanished.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Between them silence had always replaced words, a silence punctuated now by the slowing beat of Dial\u2019s heart and the passage of seconds into fewer seconds until the length of something cold ran through him. He allowed himself to sink into a vast, empty space.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":19359,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18095","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-fiction","writer-j-malcolm-garcia"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18095","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18095"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18095\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19360,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18095\/revisions\/19360"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/19359"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18095"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18095"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18095"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}