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My identity is a secret, some call me Mistress. She\/her is my byline, and my one affair with Mz. M. is a mere footnote. Having clocked in thousands of hours of convo as a pro-domme (mostly virtual) I\u2019ve also found one reveals far more to a stranger than someone they know. A voice is a smokescreen. Take Jack P. in Cincinnati:\u00a0 Harley, arm sleeve tattoo, button-down work-a-day attire, lumberjack build, gruff voice. When I asked Jack what he was wearing during the five-second intro on our call, he said satin panties, a pink tutu, and ballerina flats<\/em>. (He\u2019d been edging for two hours.) Within five minutes “Jackie\u2019s” voice went up five decibels, and her tone went up a few octaves with a slight lilt. I arranged a gang bang (role play) intuiting the urgent need for release, there was no time for a Grindr<\/em> date or glory hole quotas. Jackie already had the suction cup dildo on the wall. I pretended to be a T-girl (J. didn’t care much for vaginas), my 9 \u00bc\u201d uncut cock was part of the manhood needed to ride Miss J, a bit of foreplay meant I had to dial up the aggro, hypnotic effects of it being ass-fucking real. Jackie’s safe word was Pina Colada<\/em>.<\/p>\n

Captain Jim, Jason X and Sammy the ten-inch stallion, they\u2019re all here.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

It\u2019s about to go down. You\u2019re the party favor now, <\/em>I tell her.<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Fast forward twenty seconds: Miss J is a screamer. I also learn Jackie likes birdwatching and ice hockey. We say our goodbyes with Jack back to being Jack. (He says after he cums he gets all embarrassed.) I told him I understood. It happens all the time (it does).<\/p>\n

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Saturday 11:59 a.m. <\/strong><\/p>\n

My inbox is full. So many requests. A heads up: if the phone rings, I need to answer. I\u2019m expecting a Skype call. (I see them, they don\u2019t see me). Here goes.<\/p>\n

Dear Sad Married guy,<\/p>\n

Yes, the choices are daunting. The wife has no idea about your secret? When you\u2019re fucking her do you imagine you are <\/em>her? Too far in now, as you said. Kids, house, captain of industry. Regarding the pictures you sent. A. Vanilla (you\u2019re right, no one would suspect) B. Yes, pink suits you, I see you like pastel shades, the stockings DO make your legs look longer. You may want to consider a name change as I get to know you, to encourage you on your path. I think you said you like the name Brianna? You did it once years ago? College sophomore year. You forgot his name, but not the feeling of his cock in your mouth, the way his hands pressed against the small of your back. You want to do it again, but all coiffed and primped and lacquered this time. You like it when I call you a little fuck slut, BBC worshipping, cum guzzling, bimbo barbie whore? Yes, I\u2019m happy to listen. It helps, I think, to speak to someone. No one knows, you said. I wish I could do as you ask, make it all change, like magic. You want to be a girl, or a bimbo sissy, even for a day. Take the pressure off. All those people work under you, depend on you to guide them, that\u2019s hard. Gather up everything I said: a lollipop, chocolate butt plug, your favorite outfit, cage if you want\/need to be owned that way. We\u2019ll talk, talk, then we\u2019ll play. I\u2019ll help you grow breasts (fantasy).<\/p>\n

~Mistress<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

 <\/p>\n

Inbox:<\/strong><\/p>\n

SlaveBoyX, 54, 6\u20191, lawyer, married<\/strong><\/p>\n

I have some lube and some rope.<\/em><\/p>\n

Thank you.<\/em><\/p>\n

Safeword: Jello<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bob, 41, 5\u201910\u201d 205 pounds, bank teller, single.<\/strong><\/p>\n

The first time I came it was horrifying.<\/em><\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t wait to try it again.<\/em><\/p>\n

Safeword: Sponge<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Mr. J., 32, middle class, IT, healthy 6 figure, alpha<\/strong><\/p>\n

Seduce me into complete helplessness. Break me down, use my weaknesses against me, enslave me. Hypnotize me into feeling tied up & gagged so I\u2019m unable to move or speak, just stare at your soles for however long YOU like.<\/em><\/p>\n

Warning: I will resist. Challenge: Make me feel helpless. T&D, SPH, CEI<\/em><\/p>\n

ANYTHING you can do to break me. Leave me with no choice but to admit defeat.<\/em><\/p>\n

Safeword: Pineapple<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

IllusiveGuy82, 38, 5\u20199\u201d, entrepreneur, married<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve got: poppers, 4 tiny bottles of bacardi, one joint and a paddle.<\/em><\/p>\n

Fuck with me.<\/em><\/p>\n

Safeword: Marzipan.<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

JukeBox65, 54, 6\u20193\u201d 210 pounds, repair guy, married.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Terrorized as a child: angry father<\/em><\/p>\n

Weaknesses: T-girls & dominant women<\/em><\/p>\n

Safeword: Oops<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

JamWoods, 29, 5\u20199\u201d mechanical engineer, single.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bi-polar, anxiety disorder (meds)<\/em><\/p>\n

Likes: sci-fi (Deep space 9 not Black Mirror)<\/em><\/p>\n

Request: mild amnesia, erotic hypnosis<\/em><\/p>\n

Safeword: avocado<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

CaptainRadiohead, 52, SSDI, AI chatbot girlfriend.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Insomniac seeking respite assisted by vibrating nipple clamps<\/em><\/p>\n

Disappointed in humanity<\/em><\/p>\n

Ketamine (meds)<\/em><\/p>\n

Alter ego: Kishelemukong (Lenanpe mythology)<\/em><\/p>\n

Safeword: rabbit<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Skype Call:<\/strong><\/p>\n

I saw the doctor again. I couldn\u2019t unsee the picture of his wife and children on his desk though I asked him to turn it around in between knocks from staff. He\u2019d been edging for two weeks. Dr. T\u2019s voice was a bit manic in inflection though he tried to hide it, waist down he modeled the polka dot red bikini.<\/p>\n

Do you like it, Goddess? <\/em>He spun about in manic fervor. I see you have your chastity device ready. Did you take your meds I asked concernedly? You may be spiraling, I told him. He agreed. But he didn\u2019t want to fuck his wife. Dr. T. sounded angry. I sucked a cock this morning<\/em>, he blurted out.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

He wanted me to call him names. He was a faggot, (his word not mine) I set the combination, as he turned the numbers of the lock. The only way he\u2019d get any work done, as a self-proclaimed \u201cchronic masturbator.\u201d He needed to hear the \u201cL\u201d word, or see me gesture with my thumb and index finger as he pleaded with me to pay my Visa bill. I capped it at $500, though he begged to go higher still. Dr. T. is a world-renowned physician with many who depend on him to make life and death decisions.<\/p>\n

Goddess? Do you have the combination? Don\u2019t give it to me until the end of the day.\u00a0 \u00a0 Don\u2019t forget though as I don\u2019t want to be forced to cut it off.\u00a0 Will you call my wife if I don\u2019t do as you ask? Shall I suck another cock for you? Don\u2019t make me cum, <\/em>he said. If I cum I have to go back to being normal. I like the high. Go into my bank account and tell me how much I sent you. I like it when you say the numbers, I get a rush when you do. Please, Goddess. TELL ME! $500, can I send you more? Oh shit, <\/em>he half screamed, panicking as he\u2019d just received a call from his wife. I have to go, <\/em>he managed to say. (knock at door)<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Monday 2:59 p.m. PST.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I take a break. My inbox is full. I copied down Dr. T\u2019s combination from the pic I\u2019d taken. He was unlocked within two hours.<\/em> I have a file with his name on it. Six weeks would pass before I heard from the good doctor. He asked me to call him at the VA hospital. He\u2019d been a “good boy.” No slip-ups. Until the chat box and sloppy text misspellings meant he was jonesing again, and the normal conversation about life, politics, niceties turned into another paid visa bill, the modeling of undergarments, or descriptions of his dominant male friend with a firm hand and cock (with little by way of words exchanged between them).<\/p>\n

NOTE: Dr. T. may have also pissed into a cup in order to relieve the pressure, and to drink it thusly, and seemingly go back to “normal” as a patient was ready to see him. We said our goodbyes. He trusted me with his life.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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