I take a wide berth around the rural road locals call \u201cSnake Road\u201d a few weeks in the fall and a few weeks in the spring when snakes migrate across the road en masse. I mean, you don\u2019t wanna run over than many snakes on account of the ecosystem and such. And, if you\u2019ve never had dead snake smell on your car wheels you don\u2019t want it. It\u2019s not pleasant and ain\u2019t easy to get rid of. I don’t want to be near snakes. I have unnatural, unreasonable fears. No matter how much I have or do or could educate myself on them, I think I\u2019d still avoid Snake Road.<\/p>\n
The road\u2019s real name is LaRue Road but no one calls it that.<\/p>\n
I have this unnatural fear of snakes for many reasons. Snake Road is in Southern Illinois, which is practically Western Kentucky. All my fears emanate over 600 miles away where I grew up in Texoma, where Southern Oklahoma meets North Texas.<\/p>\n
In a story that happened before I could remember but has been told enough I do remember it I was running across the yard when I was three or less and stepped on a copperhead that coiled my leg and inched up my leg and was gonna strike my crotch but my daddy acted just quick enough to hit its head and knock it dead with an axe handle that was laying in the yard.<\/p>\n
The first encounter I remember remember happened because my stepdaddy had a business where he\u2019d buy peanuts off farmers and dry and store \u2018em in a warehouse he built \u2018til they were just right then he\u2019d sell \u2018em to a bigger company that sold them to even bigger companies to make peanut M&Ms and candy bars with. So we\u2019d have this big mountain of peanuts at my stepdad’s warehouse and you\u2019d hafta climb the mountain of peanuts and shovel and rake \u2018em so the peanuts didn\u2019t clump up and get moldy while they were drying out. Since I was little they\u2019d have me tuck my jeans into my boots and climb on up there but I didn\u2019t mind that chore because it was fun because when you were done you could take a big slide and tumble down peanut mountain. Only this one time when I\u2019m up there guys from down below who work for my stepdad yell out \u201cSnakes!\u201d and I look and three black snakes are coming down the peanut mountain. I hauled ass, running knee deep down peanut mountain and didn\u2019t stop at the bottom for the snakes to catch me.<\/p>\n
For about ten years after that I had a recurring nightmare that my stepfather hired these three snakes to work at the company, literal big snakes and not metaphorical ones. And in the dream I\u2019m trying to yell at everybody \u201cwhat did you hire these snakes for, they\u2019re snakes!\u201d but it\u2019s a nightmare so everything comes out as a whispershout and no one hears me or pays attention. In the dream the snakes are the bad kind and they kill you, no joke this was my dream, by biting you in the crotch. The nightmare kept on recurring, I reason, because I always woke up during the part just before they bit my crotch. Then one night many years after my stepfather\u2019s company was shuttered due to a lack of government subsidy for peanuts and a few years after he and my mom divorced I was having this same damn dream and I woke up in a gasp just before one of the snakes bit. I sat up and muttered to myself that it was just a damned dream. I fell back asleep and right back into the nightmare. Only when the snake bit down on my crotch I didn\u2019t wake, I looked down at the snake and said aloud in the dream in a clear voice, \u201cIt\u2019s just a damned dream\u201d and I didn\u2019t die in the dream. And I haven\u2019t had it since.<\/p>\n
But that\u2019s just like two reasons I\u2019m terrified of snakes.<\/p>\n
That stepdaddy had a big 160 acre farm we weren\u2019t allowed to inherit because we weren\u2019t blood, not that it mattered anyway because mom divorced him. Seemed every other year we had these huge water moccasin infestations because we had so many creeks and three big free CCC water tanks dug on the property and it got so hot and muggy there. We had to carry pistols and watch our step and shoot lots of snakes to not get bit. Snakes that rotted and smelled terrible. One day I bounced into the chicken coop where unbeknownst to me my stepdaddy was firing on a snake with a baby chick in its mouth and he missed and the bullet ricocheted and I felt the heated wind of the bullet as it buzzed across the bridge of my eleven year old nose and lodged in the wallboard by my face.<\/p>\n
Snakes are full of potential dangers.<\/p>\n
My stepgrandma Essie killed snakes every which way. I saw her chop heads off with shovels, hoes, and spades. I saw her shoot several. Once, a copperhead was curled up in the old metal fan in that same chicken coop. She turned the fan on and watched it chop that copperhead to bits, me standing behind her. She was a snake champion killer and I tried to be just as good a snake killer. I was gonna get them before they got me. I ain\u2019t no baby chick.<\/p>\n
We lost a good blue heeler and a shitty black lab to snakes on that farm. No one lives there now and it grows more and more wild with weeds. I bet the moccasins have run amok.<\/p>\n
No one lives there now because the two surviving brothers, my exstepdad and his oldest brother, got in a fight they couldn\u2019t get over and my exstepdad poisoned all the cows and killed \u2018em. They all keeled over and went stiff and tongue-lolled same as if they were snake bit out there in the hot sun. Essie is still alive but she\u2019s in a nursing home so the place just sits.<\/p>\n
It sits and, in my mind, swells with snakes. So I still fear, unreasonably. And even if the nightmares are gone, I still don\u2019t go near Snake Road.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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