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There was a period of time when everyone\u2019s mailbox was down on the end of Thorncreek Road. But after Mr. Berzansky got caught for the child porn thing in \u201897, no one wanted their mail near his slot, so to speak, so everyone started to have their mail delivered to their front porches. No one ever thought to take down the orphaned mailboxes at the end of Thorncreek, though; they just sat there like three rusted crows balancing on a fencepost.<\/p>\n

When Mr. Berzansky left our rural community for the State Pen, his niece moved into the house. I was in college and Jess Berzansky was probably around twenty-seven, though cigarettes and booze had already started to affect her looks. She maintained a rigid rotation of three or four stained t-shirts, each logoed with a different brand of light beer, and all of them clung to her not fat, but not exactly skinny body. Her jugs were big, and even though she wasn\u2019t that old, they sagged, because she either refused or forgot to wear a bra. I always caught myself staring at her shirt, trying to determine if the dark spots on her chest were her nipples or just stains. From a distance it was hard to tell. To complete her look, Jess usually wore a pair of yellow slippers, spotted with dirt from treks down the graveled driveway and into town for more alcohol and maybe even some non-proofed groceries. Aside from her liberated chest and overall disheveledness, Jess kept herself looking\u2014not \u201cwell,\u201d but not explicit either. I was always grateful for that, because our other neighbors were shameless. What I mean is that she wasn\u2019t the type of white trash that showed too much skin, the kind that lived on the otherside of Thorncreek. The Rochelle family definitely fit this sub-category.<\/p>\n

The Rochelles, pronounced \u201cRow-shells,\u201d were filthy poor due to lack of birth control, and their half-nakedness was a result of this population bubble forming and bursting every nine months. My father called them, \u201cthe rabbits down the street.\u201d They must have had ten kids, but I could never get a firm count because with families like that, the kids are wild and literally running off, usually into the woods to go play with guns and knives. Jeremy Rochelle stuck cherry bombs in the old mailboxes one Halloween, yet only the middle box yielded enough to have a hole blown in it. You only get one shot to blow up a mailbox, because it makes so much damn noise. That\u2019s why if you\u2019re doing it, you should stick four or five of \u2018em in there. One should never be half-assed when it comes to small explosives. Jeremy was a sloppy criminal\u2014I think he also ended up in prison for some sort of meth lab bust. Maybe he and Berzansky are cellmates now.<\/p>\n

I wasn\u2019t surprised he half-assed his vandalism. His parents demonstrated an equally half-assed approach to keeping up the family home. The Rochelle\u2019s house didn\u2019t have an inch of siding on it, being only wrapped in metallic Tyvek insulation. The poor shits\u2019 house looked like a pathetic space shuttle or like a massive appliance stripped for the steel. Pink clouds of insulation poked out all over the damn thing. On one of my usual runs, I once saw two Rochelle girls eating it, probably cause it looked like cotton candy. The Rochelle\u2019s house was about as close a thing we got to \u201cmodern architecture\u201d in Lake County. In our wooded landscape, the place was an empty Bud in a ditch, just on a bigger scale.<\/p>\n

The Rochelles and Jess Berzansky were the two messes on either side of our property when I was growing up. Our house was originally my grandfather\u2019s hunting cabin, which once functioned as a regional den. A Klanster until he died, he made it to Grand Cyclops status, which really only means that he hated more kinds of people, and to a greater degree, than others in the club. Not only was his hatred of the Imperial status, but it was also considered progressive: he was the first, they say, to really go after \u201cthe faggots\u201d too. He died when I was about seven. My sole interaction with the Grand Cyclops was a short visit to the Forest City regional nursing home. He looked like a tenacle-covered alien the way every hole in his body was plugged with plastic tubing, weaved into the blinking machines at the bottom of his bed. He died from emphysema and the sound of his voice added to non-human quality of his appearance. In a robotic and hissing monotone he offered me one of his Fig Newtons. I\u2019m not sure if the cookie was stale or if they always taste piss-vile, but it was the first and last time I ever ate one of those things. He died a week later.<\/p>\n

The Grand Cyclops lived on in only my Dad\u2019s expletives when rednecks would show up looking for a place to squat and brood and pay tribute to the past. Dad sold all of the Cyclops\u2019 things really fast; he even donated the IKA memorabilia to a Civil Rights museum in Atlanta. But even after all that, my dad ended up moving us into the house. It was modest for five and there were problems with the roof, but my mother, aside from suggesting an addition, never complained. Dad said that we\u2019d never get much money for it because of our neighbors, so we grew up in a house that was too small for us, and played in a yard broken in by hate-rituals. My brother and I slept in a bunkbed on the bottom floor, and my little sister, Emma, made do with a converted gun-closet turned nursery bedroom. We were cramped on fifty acres…<\/p>\n

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We hated each other intensely, and were connected by that hatred. We both desired nothing more than to extinguish the other. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":13010,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[953,358,950,952,14,912,951],"class_list":["post-12719","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-fiction","tag-college","tag-dogs","tag-rednecks","tag-running","tag-sex","tag-shame","tag-southern","writer-kate-scarpetta"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12719","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12719"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12719\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13036,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12719\/revisions\/13036"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/13010"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12719"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12719"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mrbullbull.com\/newbull\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12719"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}